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天氣好陰阿這兩天舒適度大約16到20八, 你們很羨慕吧喝喝, 在我還在為了這一直天都是灰灰白白的天深深沾沾自喜羊羊得意的同時, 過於大意又自以為我居然沒有發現台灣這像烤爐熱騰騰的氣候居然也會是激情催化劑, 可笑阿可笑

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Getting Out Of Town by VOICES by MartinKlingman

Journal 6 all about lily chou chou

Yesterday night my friend tal-tal asked me to send her Lily Chou-chou's song through the MSN. Then I opened Lily's files, and I just couldn't help but keep playing her songs again and again on my iTunes. The night reminds me of some sunshine days of living in my little apartment next to Fu Jen. For those days, I always listen to Lily Chou-chou when I need some comforts, and I would play songs all day long, and stare at sparkling sunlight on my wall which coming from my window. I still can remember that my roommate and I love Lily's song so much that we always joke about we should call our future daughter 周莉莉 with the English name Lily (lily chou chou), if we marry someone who got a first name chou.

The album is titled Hu-Shi(呼吸). It seemed to be the soundtrack of the film All About Lily Chou Chou but I'm not rally sure about it. I used to love 飛べない翼 most, because it was the main background melody of the film, and reminds me lots of important scenes in the film. Then I started to love the the third song エロティッく , because it attracts me most when I first listen to the whole album. On the other hand I also think 共鳴（空虛な石）is very impressive because its chorus is very powerful and strong. When I feel upset, I can recover very soon from her intense but sincere singing. However, soon after I started felling into with the fifth song in the album named 回復する傷, a song without lyric but Lily's humming. It's truly a peaceful song that give listener a sense of consolation. Sometimes when I really in a hard time, I need a whole night to think and to talk to myself, then I would play a quite song like 回復する傷 repeatedly to accompany me. Besides, the song 愛の実験 can not be ignored because Lily's voice in this song is too sexy that when I listen the first line "I see you, you see me..." I can not help but keep quivering.

For last night, a night I started to listen to Lily Chou-chou again, at the same moment I realized that it's not about I love which song in this album, it's because Salyu's (the real singer that sing Hu-shi in reality) song just so good and touching that every time I listen to them, in no matter what kinds of mood, I still would indulge in her music deeply. Some songs just have the atmosphere to fit into people's heart and let people define them as remarkable as priceless souvenir.

All About Lily Chou-Chou (リリイ・シュシュのすべて) is a 2001 Japanese film written and directed by Shunji Iwai. It portrays serious issues among teenagers like loneliness, sex, violence, personality manipulation and even prostitution. Though the movie emphasize on lots of issues, the whole film still run in a quite atmosphere along with Salyu's music. The scenes are beautifully shotted, the lights are bright and hazy, and the speed is slow. It has already been two years when the first time I watched the film, so I couldn't remember the exactly plots. This year, the year of 2011 is the tenth Anniversary of All About Lily Chou-Chou, and she have a new song called Ether which I already got from my lover. Still very beautiful and touching. Maybe I will find some time to see the film twice to flash back my memory toward Lily. Love Lily Chou-chou forever.

Journal 5. Winter Drink

Now I have a little sun(actually it's a hot electric fan which shinning like a sun)stay aside with me because there is only 16 degree in my room. My cats are also lying near by me in order to warm themselves by getting closer to the little sun. In such cold winter, it is the best time for all of us to hold a cup of warm chocolate in our hands. I confess that I'm always a sweet lover. Though afraid of getting chubbier form those sweetnesses, I still can't not control myself to seize the chances of buying a cup of hot chocolate.

Since having various chocolate drinking experiences, I want to share different chocolate that I love from different places. Hot chocolate from Starbucks is the one I love most, it's not very sweet but own a strong chocolate aroma. The drink is very thick so it is suitable for strong-flavored lovers. Another chocolate that similar to Starbucks is from Tabard. Tabard is a little coffee shop near by Zhongxiao Xinsheng MRT Station which offer us a special kind of chocolate called Mexico Chocolate. It has fuller flavor because instead of using only hot milk, the bartender also save hot formed milk to create a better taste of Mexico Chocolate. On the other way round, though Mos and Dante Coffee's chocolate are sweeter, they got a kind of vanilla smell, so they are also very tasty. Chocolate of Chez Moi is the sweetest one, since it not only use cocoa powder but also add a spoon of white sugar. But it has three cotton candies decorated on its top, and the best part is you can drink chocolate with the melted cotton candies. I can not described how delicious it is, having this kind of chocolate is the most blessed thing in winter. If you can't not find some time to sit in a coffee shop to enjoy your cup of hot chocolate, you can try 7-11's. But the flavor is up to the worker in the store. Sometimes the nice worker would offer you a cup of tasty chocolate milk. But I have a bad experience that I once got a flavorless and tasteless one since it has no difference between it and hot milk. Hence, I wish you good luck if you're going to try 7-11's chocolate milk.

By the way, have you ever heard of the story of Lady Godiva? She was a legend lady who save her people by asking her husband(a land lord in middle ages) to reduce her people's tax. And she serves as the symbol of elegance and dignity. So it is the reason that the Godiva Chocolate Company choose her name as the title of the company. Just a little association. Enjoy your sweetness!

Journal 4. Yang-yang

"I'm the man from the kingdom of sheep, not living in the wooden fence but on the green and shinning grassland. I like to go out and play, everybody calls me Chen-zhi-yang the black sheep. My skin is black, and my eyes are white. When talking I like to speak dirty words; when going outside I enjoy to play and step on the mud. I really wish that someday my heart could also turn into black, since my skin is already black. Please, please, please."

「我是羊國人，住在草原上，不在柵欄裡，喜歡往外跑，叫做陳知羊。膚色是黑的，眼睛是白的，喜歡講髒話，喜歡採泥巴，希望有那麼一天，心也可以變成黑色的哦ｉ６。ｉ６。」

I don't exactly remember when did I started calling myself "Yang-yang", it seems like the name is living with me for quite a long time. For past years, I didn't have an adorable and suitable nickname. I was pleasant only when others calling me my real name "Chen-zhi-min". but now, somehow I feel that the name can represent my personality and also symbolize my feelings toward things I love. I actually don't know how to explain, but just have some feelings toward the name. Now whenever I meet a stranger on line or on MSN, I would just copy and paste the little passage above to him or her before introducing myself. Because I think the description of the black sheep can introduce myself better than my greeting words.


So, if you ask me why I choose Yang-yang, do you really like this kind of animal? I think surly I can answer you yes. Black sheep can not frequently been seen in our daily life (because most of the time we only can see the white sheep, right?), but on the night of my 20th birthday, I saw a beautiful black sheep on the mountain of Miao-li. I can't be overstating, but I was really astonished when the moment that black sheep straightly stared at me. It looks like a real men because it was smiling. It had the facial expression that same with people. Its crystal-clear eyes like it can read through not only me but also my mind, which reminds me of the shishigami god (the forest god and mountain god) of the film Princess Mononoke. And it was smiling all the time. I think it was the exact time that I fell in love with the black sheep.

Journal 3. The Fool

My love band "Warpaint" has released their new album The Fool on October 1th. I hate myself for noticing the news so slow that I can't download and listen to it at the first moment.
Two hours before, I was browsing the White Rabbit Recored's FB pages, then I found that they post a song by Warpaint which I have never listened before. As I read the content closely, I realized that it was the new song from their brand new album. I can't hide my joyful mood for I　love their last album Exquisite Corpse very much.
For me, Warpaint is the symbol of "woman power", their music is strong and intense, or even violent. They are good at creating the atmosphere of mystery. Sometimes they just give me a sense that they are fairies living in the deepest woods but always hiding their faces under a wolf mask.


I listened to their music for almost a whole year, and I think the main reason that I love them so much is because they all are girls! And each of them were very talent. One of their favorite trick was to "switch place". Like they all can sing and play guitar. So for every different song they can change vocal or have two singers.
Now I'm going to post the first song of The Fool here. It is called "Undertow".
It's powerful and shocked. and I think it's good for heart-breaking people.

Journal 02.3 Dance.

I have two sad stories to tell. One is from a movie I saw today in our picture book class. In the beginning of the movie, a mother asked Max (her son) to tell a story, so Max answered “There are lots of building. Some of them are tall, and some of them are just common buildings. And there are Vampires either. One of Vampire was very eager to destroy the tallest building. So he started to fight. He conquered the tallest building, but he also started to cry loudly. Other vampires asked him
“Why are you crying?”
“I broke all my teeth!” say the crying vampire.
“But they are all your temporary teeth.”
“No. they are my grown-up teeth.”
Other vampires didn’t say a single word anymore because they understand that a vampire could not be a vampire anymore if he doesn’t have teeth. And they finally left him behind. And the sounds of cry never stop.”
The movie was based on a story called “Where the Wild Things are”, which was illustrated by Maurice Sendak. Though I didn’t see the last part of the movie( I fell asleep haha), I do love the background music. Maybe I’ll start looking for its soundtrack later on.
I heard the other sad story from my lover. A sad story he has post on his Facebook page before. “There is a kind of bird which doesn’t have legs in the world. So it can only keep flying in the sky without taking rest on the ground. It can’t land on the ground so whenever it feels tired; it only can rest in the wind. For this kind of bird, it has the only chance to land on the ground. A chance that coming with its death.”
The story was actually coming from the movie “Days of Being Wild (阿飛正傳)”, which directed by the famous Wang-Kar-Wai. And the touching and sad story was the lines from Leslie Will. For my lover, he told me that this was the part he loved best in the movie.
Though I feel sorry for these two stories, the process of rethink sad stories reminds me of the other “happy story” called “Honey Pie” (it is very easy for us to think the upside when pondering things deeply, right?). I can barely remember the plot of “Honey Pie” expect for scenes like bears dancing hand in hand happily in the forest. The story was from the book All God's Children Can Dancn by Haruki Murakami. And he also wrote the other book called Dance, Dance, Dance. I especially love the word “dance”, so let me name this journal entry “Dance”.

Journal 02.2 My Plants Are Dead.

Lately, Blonde Redhead’s significance in my heart has increase violently. They served as romanticists who influenced me greatly on both emotional and mental degree.

On the night of October 2th, with their coming to Lagacy (a huge concert hall in Huashan1914 Creative park), we got higher and higher. Their music was the most sensational kind that I’ve ever heard. I would like use words like sticky, moist, heavy, warm, tender but and a little bit squeamish to describe their music. Kazu (the vocal) was extremely beautiful and charming. It was very proper to define her as the goddess in dream pop. On the concert I met two foreign girls, and they told me the story between Kazu and the other two male band member. Kazu came from Japan with the mystery of eastern world, Amedeo and Simone Pace (twins) were born in Milan, Italy, and grew up in Montreal. After twins moving to Boston and study in New York, they met Kazu. On their journey of music, Kazu married one of them, and they made Blonde Redhead as sweet as their love story.

Actually we did a little trick, or you can say “an adventure”, just to get closer to Kazu. My lover leaded us passing through a huge crowd. We did “cut in a line” when we got into the hall. But we got the best view.I just wanted to say Blonde Redhead really sparked my life after listening to their new-releasing album Penny Sparkle and the concert on 10/2.

My lover sent me a bouquet of white campanulaceae and made his confession to me on that particular night. Now, the show has already ended for almost half a month, and the white campanulaceae also withered away. And from all of BR’s song, I especially love the one which is called “My Plants Are Dead”. and here is the video for all of you.

Journal 02.1 Yes.

Yes, yes. You are extremely right. I am in love. I am loved by someone special recently. I involved into the relationship deeply. And because of the changing relationship (which comes very fast and unexpectedly), I decided to change my journal writing strategy. My life changed a lot. Hence, from now on I will cut each my journals into many little entries since I have too many things to tell. And I would not tell everything in detail for two reasons. One is because of course I want to keep some of my private secrets, and besides, in my heart I always feel that if you tell some beautiful things in very detail ( like you tear it apart and analyze it thoroughly), it won’t be beautiful anymore. Maybe that is why sometimes we have to keep so many things in secret diary. That’s why we have secrets, that’s the charms of mystery.

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once in a minute

twice in a moment

but not even once in a thousand years

Journal 01.1

I am a person who addicted to music very much. And of course I love to go to live concert. For me, watching live is the commonest activity that I would choose when I am free, since some live show not only make me feel relaxing but also very exciting. Except of beautiful melody, sometime I even can get energy from the passion of audience and the excellent performances of musicians. Thus, I want to talk about live concerts that I watched recently.
The first show was the debut of “Sugarpill”. The leader of Sugarpill was my good friend “Po”. He was a talented boy! He set up the band, became the leader, composed every song and even in charge of lyrics and singing parts. Since last year, Po never stop creating songs to make his band became stronger. They first won the first prize of Golden Melody award in National Chengchi University. Then, Po and his band participated in a music contest hold by The Wall, a famous live house, in order to gain the opportunity to perform in The Wall. Soon, they held their debut on 16th night. Since they were just a brand new band, we fans can only heard demo versions of their songs. Therefore, I felt extremely exciting before the show. Out of surprise, their music is very mature. There were no signs to show the all band members were merely twenty years old. The only disadvantage was that the sound of mics were too small. Sometimes I can barely hear Po’s voice. What a pity!
During the show, I especially love two songs, one is “Eleanor” and the other song is called “The Way You Deceive Me”. According to Po, Eleanor was the name of his first girlfriend. Hence, his wanted to make Eleanor as beautiful as his first love. I like the last two lines “We were waiting for the train also the dream we had; we were waiting for the rain also the dream we had traced.” Every time I listen to these two lines, I can tell how deep his missed the memory of his first love. As for the other song, I just love the melody. Po’s melody always made me feel comfortable and warm. As a result, whenever he sent me a new demo, I would keep listening to that particular song for a whole night. No Kidding!

Journal 01

To me, this is summer is a very, very special summer, since two little cute rascals came into my life. They are my new pets, my dear babies, the two little kitties whose names are Hei-hei and Kuai-kuai(黑黑與塊塊). My uncle’s cat Chiau-chiau, an orange wild cat, is their mother. Chiau-chiau was not a well-behaved cat. It was impossible for her to stay at home all day long. She liked to play with other neighborhood cats outside the door. Soon, she got pregnant and gave birth to five little kitties. After our two months long observation, we chose Hei-hei and Chiau-chiau to join our family since both of them were very healthy and looked very cute. Most important of all, their personalities such as their temper and self-control are better than other little cats.
During the whole summer vacation, they served as my best companions. Though I still had to deal with some little troubles like cleaning litter box for them, or helping them to take a shower, I enjoyed most of time when be with them. Actually, I think the most difficult part was the shower time, for they feared water and hair dryer very much. Whenever I opened the water tap, they would totally freak out no matter how careful I was. Then, the situation would get out of control. They would become very crazy and uncontrollable. And they would leave me some scars on my poor arms when every time I tried to rein them. But I never angry at them for hurting me, deep in my heart, I know cats will never act like a good kid. It is best for them to grow happily without any pressure. I really love them. My dear babies- Hei-hei and Chiau-chiau.

生而在世，我現在沒有到真的很抱歉只是覺得有一點抱歉，但我想很快應該就會變成我非常非常抱歉了八
我們因為太在乎你們這些，所謂任何一切的事物，不管與我們有關或無關，不管是因為我們造成的還是不是，所以我們很抱歉
我們因在乎所有一切，而減少了愛自己的份量，因所有力氣就只有那麼多，所以在乎人的時候只好銳減愛自己，也就是自私的力量
雖然我不懂為什麼太在乎人、事的我們比較吃虧，但就是這樣吧，這就是老實，這就是呆版，這就是從小我們學到的循規蹈矩，這就是我們一切在世的命運

我又盯著天花板，緩緩的，優雅的哭了。今天眼淚濕濕黏黏的。腦帶想著這些不到二十四小時之內獲得的種種故事，就可以緩緩的優雅的開始哭了。我想著綠、初美姐、玲子姐、很正經的開玩笑、直子、直子內心的夢、女學生、小個子女生、還有濕潤還有不同形式的接吻、夢境、跟身體曲線、誰是誰的與外界連接點誰跟身共同分享一個相同的死、渡邊死掉的記憶、渡邊被迫成長、還有海莉與伊莉、歪掉一邊的蛋糕、precious、草原杉木林、騙了哪個漁夫還有海鷗、綠的可笑直接還有卑微卻堅強，想著這些我就可以緩緩的優雅的哭了。
我又邊哭邊分析我哭的形式和過程了。

想著瘋掉的人或許很痛苦，但又知道而且明瞭有些人不管有多無奈或混亂也永遠不可能瘋掉這樣也是非常痛苦。

欸，怎麼會這樣，
我跟你們所有的人都一樣，一樣非常非常非常的喜歡挪威的森林哦，真的。而且最接近清晨天亮的這個時刻真的是好孤獨阿。我又沒有威士忌可以喝真他媽的。

看電影的時候真正聽到Norwegian wood的時候應該會非常非常的心痛八。哭。

一切sensation都乾涸了我要哭了。為什麼沒有任何想要說的。

連下載了guitar都不想聽。
在乎每一件事情可以算是認真的活著嗎？心裡更本就知道沒有一件事情是適合我做的，但我卻每一件都做了。你們會說這是挑戰吶，青春就是要挑戰，才會精采吶，我知道阿，所以我每一件都做了。但就算做了我也不會變成適合做這些事情的人吶，並不會。

所有的女生都該美過一次，然後看著婚紗照我又想哭了

listening you

如果治癒了一百個人之後也能有一個人來治癒我，這樣就好了

所有指揮家都捏著它們的小指揮棒們跳舞跳了一輩子

就算在唱了一整天的歌和跳了舞以後，半夜還是得一個人認真聽音樂。
我們今天都還是再繼續維持我們的苟延殘喘，喘著唱阿愛情吶阿喜歡吶阿你的愛就像彩虹吶。
而在這一碰就碎就裂就斷的狀況之下唯有控制與調節才能使我們繼續生存。
調節我們說愛的時候可以大聲的說我好愛好愛，再說不愛的時候也可以立刻完全不愛。
今天，很抱歉，我想我必須一個人跳舞，你走吧。
左撇子的男人進到店裡來射了三隻飛鏢。是帽子。你走吧。

就算再唱了一整癲的歌和跳了摀以後，半夜還是必須一個人認真的聽音阅。你走吧。