Journal 02.1 Yes.

Yes, yes. You are extremely right. I am in love. I am loved by someone special recently. I involved into the relationship deeply. And because of the changing relationship (which comes very fast and unexpectedly), I decided to change my journal writing strategy. My life changed a lot. Hence, from now on I will cut each my journals into many little entries since I have too many things to tell. And I would not tell everything in detail for two reasons. One is because of course I want to keep some of my private secrets, and besides, in my heart I always feel that if you tell some beautiful things in very detail ( like you tear it apart and analyze it thoroughly), it won’t be beautiful anymore. Maybe that is why sometimes we have to keep so many things in secret diary. That’s why we have secrets, that’s the charms of mystery.

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once in a minute

twice in a moment

but not even once in a thousand years

Journal 01.1

I am a person who addicted to music very much. And of course I love to go to live concert. For me, watching live is the commonest activity that I would choose when I am free, since some live show not only make me feel relaxing but also very exciting. Except of beautiful melody, sometime I even can get energy from the passion of audience and the excellent performances of musicians. Thus, I want to talk about live concerts that I watched recently.
The first show was the debut of “Sugarpill”. The leader of Sugarpill was my good friend “Po”. He was a talented boy! He set up the band, became the leader, composed every song and even in charge of lyrics and singing parts. Since last year, Po never stop creating songs to make his band became stronger. They first won the first prize of Golden Melody award in National Chengchi University. Then, Po and his band participated in a music contest hold by The Wall, a famous live house, in order to gain the opportunity to perform in The Wall. Soon, they held their debut on 16th night. Since they were just a brand new band, we fans can only heard demo versions of their songs. Therefore, I felt extremely exciting before the show. Out of surprise, their music is very mature. There were no signs to show the all band members were merely twenty years old. The only disadvantage was that the sound of mics were too small. Sometimes I can barely hear Po’s voice. What a pity!
During the show, I especially love two songs, one is “Eleanor” and the other song is called “The Way You Deceive Me”. According to Po, Eleanor was the name of his first girlfriend. Hence, his wanted to make Eleanor as beautiful as his first love. I like the last two lines “We were waiting for the train also the dream we had; we were waiting for the rain also the dream we had traced.” Every time I listen to these two lines, I can tell how deep his missed the memory of his first love. As for the other song, I just love the melody. Po’s melody always made me feel comfortable and warm. As a result, whenever he sent me a new demo, I would keep listening to that particular song for a whole night. No Kidding!

Journal 01

To me, this is summer is a very, very special summer, since two little cute rascals came into my life. They are my new pets, my dear babies, the two little kitties whose names are Hei-hei and Kuai-kuai(黑黑與塊塊). My uncle’s cat Chiau-chiau, an orange wild cat, is their mother. Chiau-chiau was not a well-behaved cat. It was impossible for her to stay at home all day long. She liked to play with other neighborhood cats outside the door. Soon, she got pregnant and gave birth to five little kitties. After our two months long observation, we chose Hei-hei and Chiau-chiau to join our family since both of them were very healthy and looked very cute. Most important of all, their personalities such as their temper and self-control are better than other little cats.
During the whole summer vacation, they served as my best companions. Though I still had to deal with some little troubles like cleaning litter box for them, or helping them to take a shower, I enjoyed most of time when be with them. Actually, I think the most difficult part was the shower time, for they feared water and hair dryer very much. Whenever I opened the water tap, they would totally freak out no matter how careful I was. Then, the situation would get out of control. They would become very crazy and uncontrollable. And they would leave me some scars on my poor arms when every time I tried to rein them. But I never angry at them for hurting me, deep in my heart, I know cats will never act like a good kid. It is best for them to grow happily without any pressure. I really love them. My dear babies- Hei-hei and Chiau-chiau.

生而在世，我現在沒有到真的很抱歉只是覺得有一點抱歉，但我想很快應該就會變成我非常非常抱歉了八
我們因為太在乎你們這些，所謂任何一切的事物，不管與我們有關或無關，不管是因為我們造成的還是不是，所以我們很抱歉
我們因在乎所有一切，而減少了愛自己的份量，因所有力氣就只有那麼多，所以在乎人的時候只好銳減愛自己，也就是自私的力量
雖然我不懂為什麼太在乎人、事的我們比較吃虧，但就是這樣吧，這就是老實，這就是呆版，這就是從小我們學到的循規蹈矩，這就是我們一切在世的命運

我又盯著天花板，緩緩的，優雅的哭了。今天眼淚濕濕黏黏的。腦帶想著這些不到二十四小時之內獲得的種種故事，就可以緩緩的優雅的開始哭了。我想著綠、初美姐、玲子姐、很正經的開玩笑、直子、直子內心的夢、女學生、小個子女生、還有濕潤還有不同形式的接吻、夢境、跟身體曲線、誰是誰的與外界連接點誰跟身共同分享一個相同的死、渡邊死掉的記憶、渡邊被迫成長、還有海莉與伊莉、歪掉一邊的蛋糕、precious、草原杉木林、騙了哪個漁夫還有海鷗、綠的可笑直接還有卑微卻堅強，想著這些我就可以緩緩的優雅的哭了。
我又邊哭邊分析我哭的形式和過程了。

想著瘋掉的人或許很痛苦，但又知道而且明瞭有些人不管有多無奈或混亂也永遠不可能瘋掉這樣也是非常痛苦。

欸，怎麼會這樣，
我跟你們所有的人都一樣，一樣非常非常非常的喜歡挪威的森林哦，真的。而且最接近清晨天亮的這個時刻真的是好孤獨阿。我又沒有威士忌可以喝真他媽的。

看電影的時候真正聽到Norwegian wood的時候應該會非常非常的心痛八。哭。

一切sensation都乾涸了我要哭了。為什麼沒有任何想要說的。